thinking of the future...

there are some days when I think of all the things i think i could do. I dream, if you will.

this is my dreaming face:

Allow me to share.

I think I could be a photographer forever.

Im really loving it more and more.

Its so fun to capture a moment.

To have a memory on a piece of paper that takes you back.

I looo-hooove this. ----------------------------->

I also think I could be a nanny forever.

I really do love this more than words can explain.
I love being in a home, being with kids. taking care of lunch and snacks.
thinking up fun projects or field trips.
Most of all I just love loving those little youngins :)
They brighten my life up.
(i honestly cant get enough of you G, Addi and Paigers)

it makes me think of being married and having kids.

I realize more and more everyday

Especially during Christmas time.

Maybe its common for the average single 24 year old girl to think of getting married around the holidays.

Ok ok ok... so maybe i think of it more than just christmas time.

but more so christmas time.

I cant wait to decorate my own place with my little family.

that will be so fun.

ooooone daaaaay my priiiiiince will coooooome..... oooone daaaaay we'll...

ohh sorry... lost myself in the moment there.

Although I do spend a lengthy amount of time day dreaming about my future I have to admit that I'm really enjoying the present.

I have such wonderful people in my life.

And for the first time I'm allowing myself to try new things.

Example: photography.

this = love.

* side note: thankyou Jozette. You may not know this but a conversation that I had with YOU is what made me decide to try photography! **

Plus editing pictures has now taken the time I used to spend looking at wedding dresses.

I have decided this is a good thing.

I'm sure one day I'll get married and have kids and a house and thoroughly enjoy the Holidays in my own home...

but for now.

Im loving myself. Adoring those little Dean

girls. And the basement isnt half bad. :)

mom even helped me decorate.

Happy holidays from Brooke.

Maybe its good to think of everything we have now and not dream so much about what could be. :)

Life is Good.
God is Gooder (yep. I said Gooder).

And i'm thankful for the present of the present.

(you got it).

its the most wonderful time of the year.

Ok... I was starting this blog with the intention of writing about the holidays...
but as I finished my title sentence i heard Ryan Seacrest's voice (im watching E!) say something that rocks my world.
i cant believe it.
why cant he always be single.
ugh....
Jake and Taylor.
really?
weird.
Does anybody agree???
Jake Gyllenhaal (or as I call him.. my jake)
and Taylor Swift.
(really jake?! She is 12 and has dated a jo-bro)
whom i also was in love with... but that's besides the point.
I liked him better with Reese.

Okay... I, Brooke, will no longer care about celebrities lives.
I think I can.. I think I can... I think I can.

uugh.

Anyways...back to what I originally wanted to blog about.
I LOOOVE the holidays.

I just got back from Tennesse where I saw these people in the picture above:
(approx. 5 people had left for home before the picture was taken.. so they are missing)

Theres a pic of Grams and Gramps too :) looking awesome!!!

there was lots of us. and it was a blast.
Laughing so hard our stomachs hurt.
It was wonderful.
A week full of games, smiles, old movies,
home movies. thankful time. running around. golf cart races.
football games. food. pie. pool table. ninja game. pictures. food.
barn dances. and more food.

i already miss family time :) it was so great. :)
i have a good family. Really, I do. I realize this more and more as i grow up.
I also realize that I have the best life. Such great friends.
So much love in my life :)
and to make matters better.. christmas is here.

ahhhh.
As i speak there are christmas decorations filling my house placed perfectly in every spot (done in a way only mom can do it)
I have already watched White Christmas 3 times... and will probably watch it another million more :)
i love the holidays.

Mostly because I love spending time with the people in my life!
so here is a little shout out.
I love you mom. :)
I love you dad.
I love you brit, brandon and Brad :)
I love you Nish.
I love you Jess.
I love you Brit, Kel and Les :)
I love you Grams and Gramps and B.
And i really really Love the DEANS :)

Love love love love love love love.

SoOoOoO Close!!!

I am currently sitting in my sister's dorm room.
She is at work.
Im eating almonds and watching desperate housewives (the reality one.)

In about and hour and a half brittany will get off work and we will make our way to Campus Center (cafeteria... this makes me more and more excited about Thanksgiving... the food here... not so good.)
After dinner we will make our way to Aunt Gayle's house (auntie).
She lives about 15 minutes away.
There we will meet mom, dad and brad.
And then we will all be together again... (ahhhhhhhhh)
AFter spending the evening with Auntie, Uncle Steve, Mandy, Penny and Celia, my siblings and i will retreat to the basement where we camp out on couches and sleeping bags, put a movie on the big screen and stay up way too late laughing (at probably Brad).
Then we will wake up.
And drive for what seems like forever.
approximately 10 hours? Thats a guess.
I may cry. (i tend to get emotional on long car rides)

But then....
After driving forever..
and with much anticipation.
we will be THERE.
Grandma's house.
This is quite possibly my most favorite place in this world.
I simply cannot wait to pull up their long driveway and see the big white house :)

It's going to be awesome.

Grandma and Grandpa... here i come :)

Done-zo.

The bedroom make-over is COMPLETE... well, there is one thing left.

But I'm just calling it COMPLETE!

halle-stinkin-lujah :)

It really wasnt that bad and it's been done for about a week now.

But I like it.

A LOT.

Way more than before.

Should I keep typing (talking) about it?

Or just show you?

ok... ladies and gentlemen....

BEFORE:

plain. boring. unnnnn organized...

and.......................................................

AFTER:

Clean, Sharp, New paint, Cozy, simple...

TA-DA.

I loooo-hoooove it.

I've been in my room almost non-stop.

It may not look Drastic to ya'll.

But its so much better than before. Feels like me.

I have my "wall of favorite people". :)

This is probably my favorite part...

see if you can find your picture :) ha.

I only have to put the fabric "pads" on my headboard and then I'm officially done.

(thankyou SUE for giving me your headboard!)

I got an old wooden headboard from a friend and after some sanding and painting it LOOKS FAB.

I have TONS more to blog about.

Family pictures.

my new favorite kitchen facial. you heard me.

I'll blog about all that lata.

But for today I wanted to show you my new "pad".

:)

Feel free to come over whenever.

you are invited.

im having a nervous breakdown!

As I type these words my eye is twitching and my hands are shaking.

If there is a breakdown point in bedroom renovations then I have hit it...

I may cry.

It started so well (considering I did the work alone)....

.... can i take a second to say i cant wait for a husband one day that will take over painting, putting storage units together... and doing all the things i hate doing?! ....

back to my breakdown.

I finished painting, hanging most things on the wall....

its loooking............ good.

One awesome thing is this: I got a FREE bedframe...

** thankyou Dave Bedell... you ROCK! **

but as I was about to finish hanging a few things.

(you will see pictures soon)

I heard a crash.

.... coming from my closet.

I cried.

I knew what this meant.

This meant my biggest fear has come true.

that SHE is right.

ugh.... I hate it whens "she" is right.

you know who "she" is, right??

mother.

my mother.

her scolding me for buying dress after dress...

cute top after cute top.

i didnt have one in that color... or that fabric.

(are the excuses working with you?)

uuuuugggghhhh.

she. was. right.

once again I ugh.

So, i was forced to take all my clothes out of my closet...

as I picked up each precious piece (that had been thrown so carelessly onto the floor)

I began to notice something.

I have a lot of clothes.

possibly... just possibly... TOO many (however, im not ready to say for sure)

i have 35 dresses...... i know... stop yelling at me

35 dresses that fit...

not 15 dresses that fit and then the ones i hope will fit one day.

nope.... thirty five dresses that fit.

and over 50 dress tops... dont hate me.

What i want to do is buy a really nice wooden closet organizer that can handle my... "things".

but i just spent 50 dollars on a bedroom make over.

once again...

im crying.

Grand Totaly thus far = $0.00

So I finished my brainstorming last night on Project "bedroom makeover" and couldnt help myself but get straight to work.. so i made this:

Stage 1, Stage 2 and Stage 3 are as follows:

stage 1:

2:

and some painting:

Things are slowly coming together, i've got the vision in my head, now just getting my room to match the vision :) Tomorrow = shopping for the few things i need, getting new bed frame. making head board. (im most excited about this!)

Friday = painting!!!!

WOO HOO!!!! :)

i have a Dream...

I have a Dream.......

of a place thats my own :)

A place full of my favorite things...

this includes:

music, children, warm colors, comfortable bed.

So i have decided to re-do my room.

re-decorate. change everything.

a little transformation for the soul, if you will.

however, a certain issue comes to mind when i think of such a task.

$$$$$$

I have none of this.

So. I have set a goal.

I am going to redecorate my room- from top to bottom for the amount of...

(drum roll please)

50 dollars.

Things I need to change:

paint, bed, picture frames, some kind of storage unit.

i know what your thinking.....

"impossible"..... but.....

i think I can do it.

I'm going to dig deep into every crafty part of my being and make this happen.

Brain storming starts tonight. project starts tomorrow.

BEFORE :