One less Lonely Girl

Happy valentines DAY! :)

can I just honest with ya'll for a hot second?

This sister aint a fan of valentines day.

Never really have been.

I have a valentines day curse.

*this year I literally tore my pinky nail down the middle*

Whether or not I have a valentine SOMETHING happens that messes up plans or something.

Well, I can tell you that this year I had a valentine... and a pretty good one.

My friend Austen asked to take me out for Valentines day.

(in hopes that he would give me a good one for a change.)

So Saturday night I had a sweet little pre-valentines day date :)

complete with Dinner, Good conversation, the most adorable waiter I've ever seen, AMAZING orange shrimp and some off the hook strawberry cheesecake...

(from no better place than the cheesecake factory)

A good night.

I finished my weekend by going to see the Justin Bieber movie with my mom and sister.

I have a confession to make : I want to be one less lonely girl.

That kid is so stinking good.

Im a fan.

I'm not ashamed.

I think he is adorable.

So, it was a good weekend.

but yesterday I was soooo stinkin' emotional.

Sister needed some help, let me tell ya.

There is a lot of changing going on for me in the next couple months.

Decisions about jobs, moving... everything.

and its weighing pretty heavy on my heart.

Let me just tell ya that I dont find anything wrong with crying. I think its good

(especially for a girl) to get a good cry out every now and then.

But i also think everything needs some moderation.

and yesterday I had none.

I think I cried for... eh.... probably 6 hours.

im. not. kidding.

conflicted. torn. sad. doubtful. scared. lonely. sad. frustrated. unsure. SAD.

I know Change is not something I can... CHANGE. (get it?)

its going to happen as long as I'm breathing.

I know I have to just accept it.

But i'm SOOOO not a fan of things changing.

I'm also not a fan of making decisions.

I can.not do it.

case in point: I hate making decisions so much that dinner menus give me anxiety.

yeah, its crazy people.

Yet, here I am.

Facing too things: Change and Decisions.

Are ya'll praying for me yet?

So.. what do i do with these feelings?

(seriously, I'm asking)

I have no idea.

breathe Brooke.

it's all going to work out.

breathe.

(siiiiigh).

There is a solution to all of this ya know...

I get on minute to win it and win 1 million dollars + a beautiful 25 year old man asked me to be his one less lonely girl.

I mean, this is totally possible, right?

:)